I cannot believe how quickly time is flying now that I’m not pregnant. It seems those last 2 months took forever, and now we’re whizzing through time! I constantly am sad that I’m not pregnant anymore, and I think the reason for that is when I was still pregnant I had excuses to take time to myself. I had doctor’s appointments that were completely focused on me, and in the hospital, once again, everything was focused on me. I know that sounds somewhat selfish, but I don’t mean it to. I think what I’m feeling is the need to balance and take care of myself in order to assure that I can be the best mom and wife possible. Sadly, I only feel like half the time I am achieving that. Thankfully, as reminded by Anne, tomorrow is a new day with no mistakes in it. I want to be better at balancing, and I want to be a happy, cheerful wife for my husband.
Of course, it takes time, and I need to remember that. But I also need to find small steps to feel like I’m accomplishing something positive and doing good.